I wish I didn't know what I know. I wish I could refute myself and advocate for you. I wish, but the Knowing is growing more aggressive and persistent. It wants me to understand and accept. It wants to live in my awareness like a welcomed guest even though I resent its presence with every fiber of my being. I want to wish Knowing away, and it refuses to leave me. I never asked you the question because I did not want the confirmation. If that isn't cowardice, I am unsure that I could recognize bravery. I ignored the truth, so I could cling to this breath-to-life fantasy, and my god, it was good. If that isn't foolishness, I am unsure that I could recognize wisdom. That I would reject Knowing to have this lie with you is telling, but I am still not ready to listen.
Favorite Quotes
“If growing up is painful for the Southern Black girl, being aware of her displacement is the rust on the razor that threatens the throat. It is an unnecessary insult.”
"Be the change you wish to see in the world."
“To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment.”
"...I am convinced that life is 10% what happens to me and 90% how I react to it. And so it is with you; we are in charge of our attitudes."
“There is nothing more rare, nor more beautiful, than a woman being unapologetically herself; comfortable in her perfect imperfection. To me, that is the true essence of beauty.”
“Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance.”