Catharsis
ca·thar·sis
\kə-ˈthär-səs\
noun
The process of releasing, and thereby providing relief from, strong or repressed emotions.
Frustration:
There's so much to be said; I don't even know where to start. I expected this letter to be the longest, but I can't even articulate the frustration I feel with you. And, it pisses me off. I'm annoyed with you, and I'm at odds with myself because of you. Everything with you brings about intrapersonal conflict adding to this damn inaudible frustration that I can't seem to vocalize. I'm angry. I am so mad at you, and I don't know how long it'll take me to move past it. I offered you something I couldn't give to anyone before you. It was the very thing you requested from me, but you refused it while insisting I give it you. It was fucking insanity. It is absolute insanity and not the kind that intrigues. You've affected, effected, infected, impressed, impacted, and influenced me. Yep, you've done all of that. I'm living with residuum of you right now, and it frustrates me.
I wish I could put all of this frustration into heaps and drop them off at your front door. I wish I could make this frustration audible and disturb you with it. I wish I could make this frustration tangible and accost you with it. When I get over this, and I will certainly get over it, I will be so much better than I was before. I will take this frustration turn it into motivation, inspiration, and energy. I will channel it into something that's going to drive me to be better, want better, know better, and do better. One day, all the frustration I currently feel will turn into gratefulness. On that day, I will not be too proud to admit that I am a healthier, happier, wiser, more experienced woman because of the frustration I endured with that man.
