On September 21st I prayed for direction on a matter I was uncertain about. On September 22nd, I went to work, and this cross was on my desk. I was instantly reminded of the Psalms 46:10.: "Be still and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth." (Psalms 46:10 MEV)
I knew in my knower that "be still" was the answer to my prayer. If I'm being honest, it was not the answer I hoped to received. What I truly wanted was to get what I wanted with no pressue. The answer meant going through the struggle not around it, so with every twist, turn, and challenge, from that day until now, I've looked for ways to do any and everything but be still. I also tried to discredit and reason the answer to death.:
"Was it really an answer to my prayer?" "It could have just been a coincidence." "I mean the devil heard that prayer too. I prayed aloud. He could be trying to distract me."
Friday, I received the following message: "Good morning sweetheart. I've been praying for you and this morning I felt your fears and uncertainty. For what the Holy Spirit revealed to me, I didn't pray peace, your fear isn't irrational; but, I prayed that you find purpose for the fear and fight."
It was confirmation. This is what I know. I am experiencing pressure; it is uncomfortable, but I'm not supposed to run from this challenge. I need to be still, know that God is God, and watch Him be exalted. I need to know that there is a purpose for this particular fight. And, I needed know that my feelings of fear, uncertainty, and anxiety were valid and mattered.
Two things:
(1) He knows. See Hebrews 4:15-16 (2) He cares. See 1 Peter 5:7
