To know you is to love you. Are you unknown to self?

The "I'm unlovable" story is just that. A story. Fiction. Made up by several unkind contributors, it is comprised of half truths and untruths. Have you seen the way your eyes sparkle when you're excited? Have you experienced your energy when it's electric radiating joy and confidence? Have you been on the receiving end of your love, support, and advocacy? Do you remember, not for the sake of ego, rumination, or validation, how you made them feel they could explore galaxies, conquer worlds, and slay dragons? How you make them laugh? The safety and nurturing you bring? How you listen? How you see others with interest and curiosity? Do you know what it's like to sit with you in silence as you hold space? Have you seen you at rest? My dear, you have a treasure trove of loving experiences. See even the smallest moments. Interrupt the story. You are well-loved, and baby, you are lovable.

The Glory is Within You

Some of the angst we feel - alone, with others, in our heads and bodies - so much of it is unnecessary suffering. So much unnecessary suffering comes from uninterrupted stories and patterns.

Lately, The Universe has given me clear signs. (One day, I'll write about them, sharing them as clearly as they came. For now, I just accept the responsibility to interrupt my stories, patterns, and suffering.)

The signs are so obvious that I feel particularly known. It is as though the Loving Higher Power was like, "There can be no ambiguity with that one in this season," and provided the clarity my mind and heart desires.

I feel a lot of feelings about this insistent clarity. I think a lot of thoughts about seeing that familiar classroom door; about walking by it - even though I'm comfortable with that particular teaching style and environment. I want to peer in the window because maybe, just maybe, there's something new being divulged. 

I also know which of my wants originate from survival and which originate from me.

Mostly, I know I can have my truest, most beautiful life. Worthiness isn't about what I've done or didn't do. It isn't about how I look or do not look. It's not about my earnings, education, credit score, net worth, network, possessions, or anything outside of me.

They tried to convince me that the best predictor of the future is the past. I call bullshit. 11 year old Kechia didn't know. 18 year old Kechia didn't know. 21 year old Kechia didn't know. 26 year old Kechia didn't know. Even, 30 year old Kechia did not know what I know now. 

I am rescuing them. I am rescuing me. I will show us that the best predictor of the future is awareness, desire, and commitment. I will disrupt our unnecessary suffering and create the life history said we were unworthy to live. I see and believe what they could not.